Here's a brief update:

--Turned 29 in May. Realized that I really don't want to be fat on my 30th b-day.

--Realized via "teacher camp" this summer, that I have a "fixed" mindset about myself..i.e., I fundamentally see myself inherently as a fat person, therefore blocking my own progress to becoming thin. 

--Starting having serious fat people problems: snoring badly. so badly, my 22 month old mimics my snoring as a joke. Cute, but sad. I have had *really* bad acid reflux. It's the worst thing to wake up at 2am with stomach acid coming out of your nose and mouth. I've also hurt my foot several times; I've placed my weight on my right foot in an awkward way and been unable to walk on it for a few days.

--Realized that I have a truly unhealthy attachment to food. The thought of going on a diet has been making me really anxious and brought me to tears. The reason? I couldn't bear the thought of not having ice cream. I asked my husband, (literally) "Who will listen to me when I am sad?" The who was my ice cream...

The increasing health problems, the fact that people are mistaking me for being in my 30s, the fact that I can't fit clothes at Target anymore, that my foot hurts a lot, that my husband hates sleeping in the room with me (as I listen to him snore right now...), my toddler imitates me by faking snoring, and my stomach can flap...I am going to try again. I am going to try to go hardcore. Everything else allows me a slippery slope...straight into a pint of Hagen Daz, or a scoop of Praline's and Cream on a waffle cone with Trader Joe's ginger snaps mixed in. 

Tomorrow, I'll be eating some $5.99 a pound organic cherries and sipping on green tea.

Pray for me.

(A todas aquellas mujeres que han marcado los momentos de mi vida, las que han estado y las que estaran)

Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
Your probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself instead of calamity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But Ive got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps until I'm full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
Ill be your best friend and you'll be mine
Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if u want to
Cause I want to hold yours too
Well be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But its time for me to go home
Its getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself instead of calamity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

La Da Da Da Da Da

Fergie, The dutchess, "Big girls don't cry"

Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
Your probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself instead of calamity
Peace, Serenity

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But Ive got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps until I'm full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But Ive got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
Ill be your best friend and you'll be mine
Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if u want to
Cause I want to hold yours too
Well be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But its time for me to go home
Its getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself instead of calamity
Peace, Serenity

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But Ive got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

La Da Da Da Da Da

Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS:]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

[CHORUS]

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be my Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS]

La Da Da Da Da Da

See other Fergie lyrics

]]> http://milsean.wordpress.com/?p=39 Sun, 01 Jun 2008 02:47:27 +0000 Milsean http://milsean.tr.wordpress.com/2008/06/01/mtv-video-music-awards-japan-results-part-one/ So do we agree with MTV? Or is it the usual bunch of you-scratch-my-back winners. Here's a list of results, remember that we're judging the VIDEO, not the song ;)

Before we begin, I'd like to state clearly my opinion on these award shows. MTV operates regional awards in many places: Europe, Asia, USA, Africa, etc. However, it many cases it's the same artists taking home the same awards every time. I don't deny that the best act should win and I don't want fans to miss-out on seeing their favourite celebrities... At the same time though, I wish MTV would use its power to promote music from non-English speaking countries. I don't suppose that would be a financially sound position to take though. Anyway, this particular set of results has a strong Japanese presence (not to mention a slight Korean flavour), so I can't complain too much. It needed to be said though, before I started slaughtering Ne-Yo in comparison to Miyavi....

Best Male Video: Ne-Yo, "Because of You"

I'm stumped on this one. If somebody out there can see what makes this video so special, PLEASE leave a comment and let me know! It's a slick video, well put together - I like the cuts where he does his solo dance routine. But that's it. I've nothing against Ne-Yo, but what makes this any different from every other drinkin-in-da-club Justin Timberlake/Omarion/Chris Brown video? The mind boggles...

Best Female Video:Fergie, "Big Girls Don't Cry"

I'll keep this brief. I hate Fergie. I hate her music. I hate this song. I hate the fact that I have to put it on my blog. But fair dues, it's a good video (and I REALLy hate to admit it). While the "country" look doesn't appeal to me personally, it's well put together and has a coherent, realistic story. It has more emotional depth than her videos usually do and (despite having the face of a dog), Fergie is convincing in the role that she plays. Ok, that's enough.

Best Group Video:m-flo loves Emi Hinouchi & Ryohei & Emyli & YOSHIKA & LISA, "love comes and goes"

Now this makes me happy. I'm so pleased that quality artists with a genuinely good concept-video won. I'm the first to admit my idol-preferences, but I wouldn't alter this result at all. Having so many collaborators on a single track can be difficult when trying to squeeze everyone into a short clip. At just under 6mins, this is a little longer than usual - but it's worth it. As we skip from character to character, we follow a number of interlinked narratives without ever getting lost. The styling is fantastic and the retro dancing is so bad it's painfully cool. Good choice MTV.

Best New Artist Video:Motohiro Hata, "Uroko"

I'm ashamed to say I hadn't even heard of the song, let alone seen the video, before today. It's a pleasant surprise though. The video is simply stunning, with ethereal nature shots intertwined with images of whispy figure. The performance parts of the clip are unobtrusive and, when water is featured, particularly beautiful. If you haven't seen this video, please watch it now!

Best Video of the Year: EXILE, "I Believe"

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Was this really the best video of the year? I'm not sure. I still say the dancing doesn't work, especially in the solo shots. But the cinematography is beautiful and those children sure are cute. I can see why this won, it looks big-budget and professional. As for the concept...I don't really see what sets it apart from an Arashi or KAT-TUN video. If you compare it to the m-flow video above, it falls short in innovation. It's a harmless video though, it's not going to bother anyone. So not the worst choice ever, at least  MTV didn't have to make any waves...

Best Rock Video:RADWIMPS, "Order Made"

Hooray! More cute children! And bread! Is this the perfect video? Quite possibly. It's not what I would describe as rock in the "j-rock" sense, which most of us probably expected. However, this is a breathtaking video and I don't begrudge it winning anything. It's such a simple concept portrayed in an artful manner. The passing of time, the concept of innocence, of trust...the use of a mundane object such as bread to represent so much more. There's a number of ways one can read this video. Personally, I have my own interpretation, but I would be interested to hear anybody else's. The hotness of the band...the cuteness of the boy...I love this video.

Best Pop Video:Avril Lavigne, "Girlfriend"

This song is a guilty pleasure of mine. I'm no Avril fan but this tune is soooo catchy. The video, on the other hand, is hit and miss. I don't like the multiple-Avril storyline. It smacks of predjudice - should we really be judging people on the way the look? I don't think so. Please try harder Avril. However the performance clips are great. I love the pink-punk style she's rocking, I must admit to stealing alot of fashion tips! And I for one LIKE the dancing. I can't really argue with MTV's choice here.

Best R&B Video:Namie Amuro, "Hide & Seek"

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A good video, not a great video. I would put this in the same boat as EXILE's win above: mainstream enough to please most people, but not striking in terms of the video itself. It's a fun concept that works well with the song. The styling is good and the choreagraphy is strange...but suitable. Random motorbike - why? Is it sexy? I suppose it could be...

Best Hip Hop Video:RIP SLYME, "ING"

Haha, I love it. Japan may be famed for it's strong work ethic and dedicated employees, but it creates a stereotype ripe for parody. From the very beginning this video makes a statement that the group is going to toy with some taboos. I haven't looked at a translation for the song so I don't know how relevant it is, but I don't really care. "Comedy" videos usually irriate me but the guys play their characters so well that I can't complain here. How on Earth did EXILE beat this?!?!

Best Reggae Video:Shonannokaze, "Suirenka"

Reggae and enka: somehow it worked for the song. Did it work in the video? Opinion is split on this one, but personally I love it. Everyone knows that I adore traditional culture, particularly Japanese. This video beautifully captures the delicacy of the old world before thrusting us into modern culture. Linking the two neatly, it's fair to say that this video speaks more of modern Japan than most do.

Best Dance Video: The Chemical Brothers, "Do It Again"

No matter who you are, where you live and what language you speak, there's something that everyone can relate to: dentist hate. That's as good a place as any to begin a video. Then a tape falls from the sky and a crazy dance spreads like wildfire. I don't particularly like this video, but I can't think of anything that deserves the award more. Similar to the Fergie case above, it's not to my taste but, objectively speaking, it's a good video. Although what else would you expect from the Chemical Brothers?

Best Video from a Film:Utada Hikaru, "Beautiful World" (from "Evangelion: 1.0 You Are (Not) Alone")

Ugh. Anime. Still, at least it's Hikki. You'll be surprised to hear that I have actually SEEN this Evangelion film. Of course I hated it, but at least it somewhat qualifies me to review this video. What can I say - it certainly makes the anime look more interesting than it actually is.

Best Collaboration Video: Koda Kumi & Tohoshinki, "Last Angel"

With DBSK beside her, even Kuda Komi looks classy. It's one of those cases where the quality of the song really improves the video, but I'm not really criticising. The energy here is fantastic and there's a tangible chemistry between KK and the boys. Out of all the videos on this list this has, unsurprisingly, the best dancing (are you watching, EXILE?). The futuristic theme isn't over-done, thankfully. For me, Changmin steals the show, but seriously, just take your pick...

Best Album of the Year: EXILE, "EXILE LOVE"

What does this mean? Best collection of videos for singles released from a certain album? I don't know. I don't really care. For over-all contribution to videos recently I would have given it to KAT-TUN. Just becaused they're manufactured hotties doesn't mean that their videos can't be quality. But their album wasn't released then so I suppose they don't qualify. EXILE? I don't think so...

That's it for Part One. Part Two will be up soon! (^_^)/*

Rob Schneider on Leno
Jeff Groban performs on Tonight Show
Sara Bareilles performs on Tonight Show
Alanis Morrisette performs on Ellen
Lenny Kravitz performs on CBS Early Show
Fergie performs Big Girls don't Cry and Clumsy on the Today Show
High School Musical 3 on Good Morning America
Simon Cowell on Ellen tells who he thinks should win American Idol (yawn we can tell!)
Shia Labeouf on Regis & Kelly
David Cook performs on Idol
David Archuleta performs on Idol

More as I get them!
(Reminder.....they are hosted thru the vodpod widget on the right!)

the smell of your skin lingers on me now
you're probably on your flight back to your home town
i need some shelter of my own protection baby
to be with myself and center
clarity, peace, serenity

like the little school mate in the school yard
we'll play jacks and uno cards
i'll be your best friend and you'll be my valentine
yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'cause i want to hold yours too
we'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
but it's time for me to go home
it's getting late, dark outside

---------------------------

remember that part in "love actually" where the guy pretended to sing christmas carols at the girls house and after that he held out several posters expressing his feelings for the girl. he kissed the girl and his last word was "enough."

hehe. me too. im saying ENOUGH! it was fun while it lasted. as posted in a friends shout out, it doesn't have to be happy ever after. what matters is that it's happy right now. i had so much fun. i would not take back any minute of it.

comments anyone? hahaha!

I am just sick of watching grocery prices go up and up. Politicians wanting to give handouts, yet they don't want to see the pay of the working class go up. They whine about the poor business man and his expenses. Look, we all have to cut back. If the working class has to cut back, why shouldn't the business owner? I am not saying some sort "equality" socialist communism. I am just talking common sense.

When gubmint gives more handouts, taxes go up. Politicians don't want the business people to pay those taxes. Well, who pray tell will pay those taxes? I guess the working class who are struggling and are sick of seeing Lurleen from the trailer park pop out babies to get more subsidies will pay. I doubt that the politicians will give the handouts from their own pocket. I swear, gubmint wants to see a major schism between the haves and the have nots. We are only at the starting point. First they are going to give the poor of poorest handouts. Then charge the bill to the struggling working poor. Along with allowing illegals to come into our country, plus "guest" workers, whom I did not invite as a "guest." This will keep going until the working poor throws up their hands and gives up, going on assistance themselves. Then everyone except the rich will be beholden to the gubmint. Well I tell you what. I will go on gubmint assistance kicking and screaming! Sometimes I feel as though I am living in some sort of Sci-fi conspiracy theory movie. It just makes want to cry for what the Republican Party once was, what it is and what it could be. But "Big Girls Don't Cry."

• Timbaland aturou o prêmio de Compositor do Ano pela sua contribuição em vários hits do ano, como 'Give It To Me', 'My Love', 'Say It Right', 'Summer Love/Set The Mood', 'The Way I Are', 'Until The End Of Time', e 'What Goes Around...Comes Around'.

• O prêmio de Música do Ano teve dois ganhadores, Fergie com a annoying 'Big Girls Don't Cry' a a Gwen Stefani com 'Sweet Escape'.

• Pela sexta vez consecutiva, a EMI ganhou o prêmio de Gravadora do Ano, pelos seus 21 hits premiados.

• Steve Miller e Lionel Richie ganharam o Golden Note Awards pelo conjunto da carreira.

• A nova artista pop Sara Bareilles recebeu o Vanguard Award

E apesar de todo furou JT, ele não ficou nem no Top 5 de músicas mais tocadas de 2007.

O que todas tem em comum? A capacidade de grudar na cabeça de uma forma pavorosa. A minha favorita de todas? 'Sweets Escape', da Gwen Stefani:

nonton film apapun kalo adegan sedih pasti mewek. tulis ini krn terinspirasi beberapa hari lalu nonton untuk kesekian kalinya, Tears of the Sun. g kebayang dehh kalau hal seperti itu bakal terjadi di Papua ku tercinta. entah kenapa kalo ada film dengan tema2 afrika pasti hati ini ikut terbawa suasana film.

jangankan film seperti itu, yang genrenya komedi romantis ajah pasti mewek kalo adegan filmnya romantis gimanaaa geto. apalagi nonton India -penggemar India juga- :mrgreen: namanya film2 kadaluarsa kayak kuch kuch ato kabhie kushie sekalipun yang udah ditonton 10 x tetep aja kamar tuh pasti byk tissue dimana2.

pokoknya segala adegan2 sedih di film dan acara reality show, pasti deh bikin air mata jatuh. sensitif banget sayah. my sexy hubby aja udh tau kebiasaan itu. kalo lagi nonton bareng dan sy udah agak nunduk2 pasti deh kotak tissue lgs disodorin.

apa karena saya cewek yah??? ada g sih cowok yg sampe nangis kalo nonton film yang sedih ato seenggaknya berkaca2 lah matanya??? kenapa cewek lebih mudah nangis yah???

Suatu hari, seorang anak bertanya kepada
ibunya: "Ibu, mengapa ibu menangis?"
Ibunya menjawab: "Sebab ibu adalah
perempuan, nak."

"Saya tidak mengerti ibu," kata si anak.
Ibunya hanya tersenyum dan memeluknya
erat. "Nak, kau memang tak akan mengerti"

Kemudian si anak bertanya kepada ayahnya. "Ayah, mengapa ibu menangis?" "Ibumu menangis tanpa sebab yang jelas," sang ayah menjawab:"Semua perempuan memang sering menangis tanpa alasan."

Setelah si anak menjadi remaja, dan dia tetap terus bertanya-tanya, mengapa perempuan
menangis? Hingga pada suatu malam, dia
bermimpi dan bertanya kpd Tuhan, "Ya
Allah, mengapa perempuan mudah menangis?" Dalam mimpinya dia merasa seolah-olah mendengar jawapannya:

"Saat Ku ciptakan wanita, Aku membuatnya
menjadi sangat indah."
"Ku ciptakan bahunya, agar mampu menahan
seluruh beban dunia dan isinya, walaupun juga bahu itu harus cukup nyaman dan lembut untuk menahan kepala bayi yang sedang tertidur."
"Ku berikan wanita kekuatan untuk dapat
melahirkan bayi dari rahimnya, walau
kerap berulangkali menerima cercaan dari
si bayi itu apabila dia telah besar."
"Ku berikan keperkasaan yang akan membuatnya tetap bertahan, pantang menyerah saat semua orang sudah putus asa."
"Ku berikan kesabaran jiwa untuk merawat
keluarganya walau dia sendiri letih, walau sakit, walau penat, tanpa berkeluh kesah."
"Ku berikan wanita perasaan peka dan
kasih sayang untuk mencintai semua anaknya dalam keadaan apapun dan situasi. Walau acapkali anak-anaknya itu melukai perasaan dan hatinya.
"Ku berikan wanita kekuatan untuk
membimbing suaminya melalui masa-masa sukar dan menjadi pelindung baginya." Sebab bukan kah "tulang rusuk yang melindungi setiap hati dan jantung agar tak terkoyak..?"
"Ku berikan kepadanya kebijaksanaan dan
kemampuan untuk memberikan pengertian dan menyadarkan bahwa suami yang baik adalah yang tidak pernah melukai istrinya. Walau seringkali pula kebijaksanaan itu akan menguji setiap
kesetiaan yang diberikan kepada suami agar tetap berdiri sejajar, saling melengkapi dan saling menyayangi."

Dan akhirnya, Ku berikan wanita air mata, agar dapat mencurahkan perasaannya. Inilah yang khusus yang diberikan kepada wanita, agar dapat dia gunakan kapanpun dia inginkan. Ini bukan
kelemahan bagi wanita, karena sebenarnya
air mata ini adalah "AIR MATA KEHIDUPAN".

(sumber dari sini dan sana)

ada yg bilang air mata cewek merupakan senjata andalan saat menghadapi cowok. ada benarnya juga sih, tapi kadang kan air mata cewek juga g mempan buat cowok. entah air matanya si cewek dianggap cuma air mata buaya ato dasar cowoknya yang emang buaya jd g mempan ama air mata (kecuali gas air mata kalee).

Lagi seneng ma lagu ini, membantu kuw untuk mencoba tidak nangis karena cobaan2 dalam hidup ini. mending nangis kalo nonton film aja deh.

Artist: Fergie Album: The Dutchess Year: Year: 2006 Genre(s): Electronic

N	Track Title	Download Track
1	Fergalicious	Download
2	Clumsy	Download
3	All That I Got (The Make Up Song)	Download
4	London Bridge	Download
5	Pedestal	Download
6	Voodoo Doll	Download
7	Glamorous	Download
8	Here I Come	Download
9	Velvet	Download
10	Big Girls Don't Cry (Personal)	Download
11	Mary Jane Shoes	Download
12	Losing My Ground	Download
13	Finally	Download
14	Get Your Hands Up	Download
15	Wake Up	Download
16	Paradise (Bonus Track)	Download
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I was a huge Kids Incorporated fan back in the day; so, I have a soft spot in my heart for Fergie. As catchy as they are, London Bridge and Fergalicious don't show her talent.  I'm glad she released a song that does.

What song represents Summer 2007 for you?

La da da da

The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter for my own protection baby
To be with myself in center
Clarity, peace, serenity

[chorus:]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry

The path that I'm walking, I must go alone
I must take the baby steps till I'm full grown, full grown.
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I forsee the dark ahead if I stay

[chorus:]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be my valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds

But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself in center
Clarity, peace, serenity
Yeah

[chorus:]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry

La da da da da da

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